Enjoying a morning of freedom from having to go anywhere or pack to go anywhere, I sat down to hammer out some more work for a project that was taking longer than I ever thought it would.
Email notifications started going off on my phone, this isn't unusual but when I looked to see who they were from, my heart began to race and that old familiar friend began to creep into my mind.
Fear likes me. He likes to control me because I've been easy to control. When he enters, I bow down and serve him whatever he wants. Condemning thoughts or destructive self talk, whatever fear wants, I hand control over to him. He can have my self confidence, my thought life, my intelligence, my responses, my future, he gets it all, I give it all up to him.
But today was different. Today I went to war with fear. Instead of trying to brush past fear and pretend he wasn't the elephant in the room, I stood up to him. Today, I took my Bible, flipped it open and began to read Hebrews 4:16 out loud. And I prayed.
My next go-to passage is in Daniel and like an old friend who knew just what to say, my Bible flopped open to Daniel 9:17 where I began to read Daniel's prayer out loud. This is a powerful passage in Daniel where he prays for God to hear him, answer him and to act! Strength and hope jumped off the pages when I read this passage. Daniel says, "We do not make requests of you because we are righteous but because of your great mercy." And that is exactly how I feel. I needed God's mercy and strength. I needed him to take the fear and replace it with His perfect love. I needed a courage transplant and that's exactly what He gave me as tears began to fall onto the pages of His word.
How did Daniel know I would need these words today? How did God know to tell Daniel to write this passage so that thousands of years later, on August, 28th, 2015, Melissa would need to read it and transform her thinking? How?
I don't know how God orchestrates all of the answers to our prayers, but I do know that He is my rock, my strong tower and when I run to Him, he opens his arms wide to take me in, squeeze me tight, love me wholly, only to release me, to spread his goodness and faithfulness here on this page.
Don't let fear control you, grab God's word and go to war. You will be the winner. Every. Single. Time.