I just about spit out my coffee while reading a recent email
that proposed I take over a certain position. It would mean a commitment to something I
barely knew anything about. It would
mean I would lead a group of people who didn’t even know me. And it would mean a sacrifice of time,
energy, learning, and compassion.
As fast as the email came in, was about as fast as the thought
exited my mind. I wasn’t qualified. I had no time for this. My knowledge was way
below average, and I could name about 10,000 other things I would be better
suited for.
I can’t tell you how many times this has happened to
me. An idea was introduced, and I
immediately dismissed it as something I could never do. Motherhood, writing, homeschooling, backing a
manure spreader down a hill into position, starting an IV in a cow, the list
goes on and on of things I said I could NEVER do and yet found myself doing
exactly that.
My problem is, I think I should be 100% qualified to do
anything I try. In my mind, this ensures
that I won’t fail. But that’s not how
life works. We are constantly challenged
to do something new, something we may not be qualified to do, and that’s where
we have to lean on our Creator to make up the difference.
As much as we would like to think we can order our days and
control the outcomes, we can’t. No amount of work, worry, planning or
strategizing can guarantee that everything will work out in our favor.
We were not created to hold tomorrow, or the entire next
month. No matter how hard I try, I can’t
predict, create, order, or conduct tomorrow or the next day or the next. I would like to try to control it all, but I
can’t. God is in charge of tomorrow and
next week, and next year and we are all better for it.
So, as I venture into the future, my job is to contemplate
what’s presented, serve those around me and leave the results up to God. Afterall,
He has told us that we are not called or equipped to worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow
has enough trouble of its own.
He knows best. He
knows all. He just knows.
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